Jaan is 37 today. In two decades of friendship, if I think about it with as much courage as I can muster, I really didn’t think I would see Jaan at this age. Which is really strange, because I also had no idea when the switch happened over the course of our friendship into the ‘I really can’t imagine life with you’ territory. And the next thing you know, another year passes. Then another 2. Then 5. Then 10. The deeper it gets, the scarier it gets with his illness. The more magical and ridiculously hilarious it gets spending time with him, the more I believe in miracles. Happy Birthday to the kindest heart, bravest soul and funniest fucker I know. You inspire me and knock me sideways with gratitude every day. I love you. #cysticfibrosis #cysticfibrosisawareness
